Dearest Abba, Father,
You know my heart and you know my deepest desires. Never have I felt such a need to want to hear you than I do now. Maybe it’s because I do not want to be wrong again. I’ve been wrong about many things in my life before. And I’ve made many mistakes in the past. And this is one I find myself not being able to accept, even if right now it’s just a possibility. The possibility in itself seems so bleak. And yet I trust that in whatever I may do, I just need to trust in you. I believe. I just need to remind myself, it’s not the end.
You have blessed me with such an amazing individual to enter into this phase of my life. I admire so much about him— his generosity in his time and actions, and his kind and genuine heart. He is frank and honest, yet innocent and naïve at times. And yet, the biggest challenge for me is trying to find out what role is he to play in my life?
I’ve become more aware of why I believe in what I believe. Each day I feel challenged to defend the Catholic faith and learn more about it, even though I know this means it may not lead me to him, I choose you. Father I give my humble spirit to you, that you may guide my tender heart. So one day I will discover the value of this person in my life.