Category: feelings

CE Fest 2018: Keystone

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And the day has finally come. I’m finally done with CE Fest. Just thinking about how busy the past few weeks have been makes me a little woozy. But I’m glad to have completed this journey. From the very start, I guess I didn’t exactly know what I had signed up for when I said I was okay being put in a director’s position. I was kinda shocked actually. I’d never done logistics before, and now I’m supposed to lead a team? As the weeks closed in, the scale of the event became truly daunting. I know that compared to everyone else, my job was peanuts. And yet I was really bad at it. I was really bad at balancing my other commitments. And I have to admit that CE Fest was not at the top of my priority until the last two weeks.

Despite all this, I am really glad to be given the opportunity to challenge myself. I met the goals I set out to reach which was to learn new skills and step out of my comfort zone. I couldn’t have done it without the help of my wonderful team of seniors and especially the brilliant project directors. Their patience and competency amazes me.

I’m also really glad to have completed CE Fest because it means one more milestone has been crossed for Project KaHU.

Seeing everyone again made my heart ten times fuller. And at the same time, having to break the news to them about the last few sessions broke my heart a little to see them a little disappointed. It has been a roller-coaster of a semester but I wouldn’t change it for the world (maybe I gotta study harder for finals but I can do it!).

Thank you to God for his guidance and care and love, every step of the way. His blessings keep me safe in my times of distress, which tends to be pretty often haha! I am ever grateful to the people around me who have been with me on the journey so far.

Thank you Hansie for your company and conversations are never dull with this one. I got to satisfy my ramen cravings yesterday at Tonkotsu King @ Paya Labar even though it was really late already (9:30). Please get well soon. 😷

When I lie down, I go to sleep in peace; you alone, O Lord, keep me perfectly safe.

Psalm 4:8 GNT

Taking things one step at a time

feelings, university

Midterms for AY17/18 Year 1 Sem 2:

✅ CM1401— pretty manageable but very careless and poor on my part for not revising how to draw resonance structures, other than that it was alright.

✅ LSM1102— Very straight forward! Similar to short answer questions done during lectures. Probably hit a very steep bell curve.

✅ LSM1106— This was where I started to hit the road bump in my week. I was so tired at this point I barely had the strength to revise anything. And poof went out most of what I had studied the previous week. What I was revising the night before the paper, I knew wasn’t going in. A pity because the paper was pretty easy— calculations wise, we were tested on very obvious and easy to practice for topics (of which I did not practice. Ugh.)

✅ GER1000— Tricky paper but other wise straightforward. Hoping for 14/14 but I’ll be okay with 12/14.

✅ PL1101E— The bane of my night. Easy mid term but truly hard to regurgitate all the info. Gotta change up the way I study for the finals. This was my biggest worry for midterms actually because it has the largest percentage. And even though I started studying earlier, I did not put in the revision I needed to in order to strengthen those connections. There was a lot I was not able to cover too. Going to make sure I cover the text book and senior notes more in depth this time. No more shortcuts. I’ll be lucky to score a B+ for this mod with this bad midterm.

In other news, at least the night ended well. I was with good company and my new personal assistant! (jk but doesn’t that bag look great on him) There is so much to think about for tomorrow and a lot of things to prepare for in the coming few days. I don’t have much time to breath but I’ll take it as it comes. Every second of air time helps to keep me afloat a little longer. But seeing the horizon ahead keeps me kicking and swimming. Once this week 9 is done, I’ll feel a LITTLE better but so many things are still going on it’s hard to tell if it will be.

Time to rest, tomorrow is a new day.

Pick-me-up lunch

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  • Sriracha Chicken Burger $13.90 (with gst) 8/10

Today’s LSM1106 midterm wasn’t so good. I think it’s been really very difficult trying to study late at night and still expect to absorb everything. My head has been hurting, I’ve been feeling more giddy. Easy mistakes were made, and I think I can’t afford any more.We came to SciPark for lunch and ohman lunch was great. The burger was very tender and covered with cheddar cheese and just the right amount of spice! What a great way to feel better.

How to Love?

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How does one even begin to know how to Love? How to love another human when we sometimes don’t even love ourselves? Well, Romans 12:9-13 has always been one of my favourite passages for the simplicity that it offers as a solution to this problem.

Love in Action

9 Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10 Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. 11 Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. 12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. 13 Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality.

UTown Living: Week 6 Dinner, 110318

feelings, food

  • Blueberry lime $1.30
  • Aston’s teriyaki chicken with Mac & Cheese and potato wedges $6.90
  • Bedok popiah $2.50
  • Mom’s caldareta $0 (priceless)

Blueberry lime is now one of my favourite drinks. It is beautifully aesthetic and strangely refreshing on the palette. If I could describe it to you, it tastes like slightly sour gummy bears depending on how much lime there is. I like it sour so I prefer mine with more lime.

Note to self: do all the Aston’s chicken dishes use the same sized chickens?

The teriyaki sauce is really sweet and together with the fried wedges, chicken skin and processed Mac & Cheese, is a recipe for a sinful meal on a Sunday night.

Bedok popiah is always good, but it isn’t as nice after you’ve travelled for almost 2 hours.

And I really miss mom’s cooking. Gonna have the rest for lunch.

A sign?

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So I shared with Yvonne my concerns the other day. And she gave me good advice and an interesting perspective.

… but I think whether a person is Catholic or not, that’s a label…So if he is pursuing truth and is open to listening, I think that is ok. Afterall if Jesus is The Truth, then anyone who seeks The Truth will eventually find him 🙂

Right now I acknowledge that I’m in a very different point in my life, a point where I’ve come to know how important God is for me. So I couldn’t imagine not having a church wedding, or having to go to mass without my husband by my side. I think it really crushes me. But then I realized that, with all these assumptions, I shouldn’t be looking too far ahead into all these possibilities, when I should be clinging on to the reality that is God’s plan for me. So even if it’s not what I want right now, I know that eventually all things will be okay through Him.

Dear Jesus,

Help me to see you in my every day. Help me to love myself and the people around me the way you do. I humbly ask that in my times of struggle, I remember the sacrifice on the cross you made for me.

Amen.

How do I choose what to major in University?

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NUS Open day today with the tertiary CG made me feel very fortunate about where I am right now. Looking back at it, I was in a pool of confusion and despair at some point a little over last year because of the uncertainty that was in front of me. But truly when doors close, many more open, not in our time but in God’s time.

When you come to an Open House like today, you might be tempted to look at the cut-off grade as a benchmark for which degree/faculty to choose. Something my junior said today really disturbed me, “I want to consider XXXX but it’s at the lowest cut-off out of all the majors in XXXX…” Hold up now, one has to remember that the cut-off score is merely a reflection of the degree/faculty’s popularity amongst applicants. Indeed, there are many other things to consider like job prospects, area of interest, aptitude. It’s not wrong to want to think about all those right now. But these factors are pretty subject to change, even your interests.

The phrase “follow your passion”, isn’t very helpful.

When you’re 18-19, maybe just fresh from JC or poly, it’s difficult to think about decisions that seem to define your entire career, your entire life. Here’s the truth, it won’t. So don’t just think about what you’re interested in right now, because those things might change, and when they do, it’s going to be hard to stick to it. On the other hand, don’t just pick something because you’re “good at it”. University is a whole different ball game when it comes to studying, so I think there has to be a balance of both to truly persevere.

Last of all, don’t just make the decision, pray about it. Take some time for introspection. Think about your motivations and reasons for wanting to choose that major/faculty. But at the end of the day, it is a decision to be made. And if one day you look back and think, “Maybe I should have chosen something else…”, don’t. Don’t entertain the thought. We live in the present, not the trail of our past. Even if you aren’t satisfied with where you are, pray about where to go from here on out.

In my period of navigating the whole university conundrum, I felt so lost and let down. But nowadays I look at my life and see where are the opportunities I have been given, to still meet the goals that I want. Putting trust in God’s plan has helped me to remove my blinders and see life for what it gives and not just for what it seems to “take away”.

This Lent so far has definitely been a season of more intentional prayer for me. Although sometimes it gets very difficult to focus and just be in His presence, I find that it has helped me find peace on days where I can barely hold onto anything. I seek to listen more to what God wants to tell me.

Here is a beautiful prayer shared by one of the Residential Catholics, which I think is really apt for anyone out there making “tough” decisions right now:

My Lord God,

I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

Amen

(Prayer from Thomas Merton)

Our decisions aren’t as tough as we think they are, because if we trust in God and we listen to where He calls us, they should come with ease.

Live. Laugh. Love.

Trust and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in Him. – Pslam 34:8

Mid-term termination

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I guess that since I like to tweet so much, this could be a more condensed way of putting down my thoughts and tracking down my progress. A lot to be done,

THINGS LEFT TO STUDY

  1. [LSM1102] Chapter 9
  2. [LSM1106] Chapter I: pH and buffer, chapter II: proteins, Enzyme I, Enzyme II
  3. [PL1101E] Chapter 1,3,4, 5,7,8
  4. [GER1000] Everything??/

But, there is still hope amongst all this studying. My prayer life has been more intentional and really getting myself to put aside time has helped me to focus a lot more.

Live. Laugh. Love.